I started the week with an after-work school event. I am so cynical when it comes to these, and I was soooooo feeling The Grinch about it. What kind of Mom doesn't love kids' programs?!! For real? You guys...I really don't like choir concerts and programs and special school events. Like...at all. Am I a bad mom? Please don't tell my kids, because, apparently I have developed a bit of a poker face. And I am really hoping to keep the secret on this one. It's just...I am not super excited to be forced into a crowd where I have to sit still (in uncomfortable chairs in uncomfortably close quarters) and watch a group of...I mean...I'm just going to stop there. See! There ARE times when I can hold my tongue (even though I REALLY want to finish that sentence!!! I am so self-controlled. Go...me.)
But, don't worry, y'all! Edie stepped up and offered to go. My heart was warmed by the fact that I would have a little support with Evan, since Matt had to work and it was ALL on me. Never mind the fact that the boy Xander keeps accusing Eden of "liking" (sheesh...she's in 8th grade. Leave it alone!), happens to have a brother in Dillon's grade. Well...here's the thing. Do you remember how your mother ALWAYS found out EVERYTHING about you? Turns out, she doesn't have any control over it either. Truth just happens to come out into the light...regardless of poor, innocent, Mom's intentions. To be honest, there are some things I really DON'T want to know.
But the BEST part of the entire program (other than the fact that it was finally a little organized, 'cause I'm just sayin'...the last 3 years have been...Pictures, SCATTERED pictures...), but my favorite part was the time when this kid just decided she had had ENOUGH (before the program even began), and MY Dillon was like, uhhhhh, nope. So, he happened to be behind her, and he tapped her on the shoulder and motioned for her to stand...and guess what. Kid, totally listened to him and stood up...for the rest of the program. What?!! My kid is BOSS. Now, I have a visual on why his teacher keeps saying he is a leader and a role model.
Speaking of my BOSS kid. He also got an award at school this week, which entitled me and Evan to go eat pizza with him by the Netflix fire in the school library. (Don't get me started...don't even get me started.) Of course, please don't think for a moment, if you are the mother of 4 who happens to have a full-time job AND an internship at a crisis center, that you will have one little moment free to enjoy a pizza party on your son's behalf. 'Cause other son was like, "When do I get to go back to grandma's?" And teenage girl was like "DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA...text...DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA." Oh...my goodness! Can you please not text me such elaborately, dramatic texts and then NOT RESPOND TO MY CALLS?!!! I am (bad word) driving my 5 yo to my 9 yo's special award party. Sheesh! (You guys...I am so traumatized just reliving all of this. Only for you, homies! Only with the hope that you will benefit from the humor or enlightenment of my exhausting existence.)
But we all know that is not true. I can not follow this youth anymore than I can follow...any of the youth or students that I work with. The only thing I CAN do is pray and hope that whatever little impact I have is enough to spark a flame that just might encourage a person to keep on keeping on. Because, oh my goodness, you guys!!! Keeping on keeping on is not easy!! But I am determined to do it, if only for the opportunity to show these kids it is possible to keep on keeping on throughout all of the struggle and challenge and sorrow we face. It is my sole purpose and desire to demonstrate to them that it is possible to both keep on keeping on AND to keep on remaining positive in the midst of all this. But, as far as I can surmise, there is only one reason behind that possibility, and fyi...that is my faith that there is hope in a savior for the miserable, sinful, evil, decaying, all-around nasty parts of this existence.
In other words, I will most likely have a long night tonight with kids too excited to sleep. But, it's all good. After all, it's Christmas! And I am on break. 💕
Merry, Merry, Homies! A Happy Christmas to you!! I hope it's a good one!